A follow up to my blog yesterday....My last blog
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Found myself having to really work on a problem area of my life last night, not allowing this difficulty ruin my awesome mood for very long.
Because I speak my mind & my heart I am often the target for other people's anger. I asked that the anger be placed and vented on the proper person(s) of this situation, as Creator sees fit.
You see we all have a tolerance threshold, there is only so much any person is willing to take.
Having come from a very abusive home emotionally, mentally, physically, and sexually, I had come to a realization that I had become addicted to a certain amount of mental & emotional abuse. Being a volunteer and actively although subconsciously, being the victim to a degree.
Having this realization, it does not matter who you are, nor your place in my life, when I have come that place that I am no longer willing to tolerate the abuse that person or persons will be removed from my life.
As I child I didn't have a choice, as a young adult my insecurities were so that I would do nearly anything to get one to like me, to accept me, so I could feel a part of. Slowly, very slowly, I have come to an understanding that I was also rewarding the bad behavior of others.
I have been told many time that I should take the higher road, I have done that, I have put aside my own feelings and intuition when someone reaches out for help or information, only to be hurt yet again.
Because I speak my mind & my heart I am often the target for other people's anger. I asked that the anger be placed and vented on the proper person(s) of this situation, as Creator sees fit.
You see we all have a tolerance threshold, there is only so much any person is willing to take.
Having come from a very abusive home emotionally, mentally, physically, and sexually, I had come to a realization that I had become addicted to a certain amount of mental & emotional abuse. Being a volunteer and actively although subconsciously, being the victim to a degree.
Having this realization, it does not matter who you are, nor your place in my life, when I have come that place that I am no longer willing to tolerate the abuse that person or persons will be removed from my life.
As I child I didn't have a choice, as a young adult my insecurities were so that I would do nearly anything to get one to like me, to accept me, so I could feel a part of. Slowly, very slowly, I have come to an understanding that I was also rewarding the bad behavior of others.
I have been told many time that I should take the higher road, I have done that, I have put aside my own feelings and intuition when someone reaches out for help or information, only to be hurt yet again.
I know, no one can hurt me unless I allow them to. Thus a concerted effort to remove all aspects of these abusers out of my life.
Realizing that I have been giving these people more information to use against myself, my family and to gossip about. I see that I have continued to allow them to hide behind others, never having to be accountable for their untruths.
Since I have erased, removed and blocked all access points to contact, this was a loose thread. My last post on this blog.
As is my way, I am sharing because I used to think I was all alone in feeling the way I do, growing up the way I did, and not being a part of. Today I know I am not alone and that by sharing it might help give someone hope that they are not alone.
I am not asking for attention, sympathy, nor approval, I am me and thus is where I am at.
I encourage you each to seek whom ever it is in your spiritual practices that give you guidance, protection and the loosening the energetic chords that connect to those who are angry, bitter, jealous, and resentful of you. For me at this time I have an animal guardian & an angel guardian that I use for this purpose, alone with Creator.
I encourage you each to seek whom ever it is in your spiritual practices that give you guidance, protection and the loosening the energetic chords that connect to those who are angry, bitter, jealous, and resentful of you. For me at this time I have an animal guardian & an angel guardian that I use for this purpose, alone with Creator.
On a lighter note, I am wishing you all a very delightful day, full of fulfilled promises for it is truly an awesome day!
