Random Thoughts

  Just as I see a whole bright, fun, love filled future ahead of me, I see many wonderful people that I know experiencing awesome events in their lives. New loves, new friends, new family and many are moving forward to new physical places in their lives.

  I am so happy to see these people move forward for they inspire me to stay true to what I believe as well as to the goals and intentions I have set for myself, and those to that Shaun and I have made as a couple.

  We have had some amazing spiritual opportunities present themselves which we are preparing to embark on. Woo Who, I am eager to begin.

 The skies the limit, another words limitless. Amazing things are happening in a beautiful way that I had previously only dreamed of. Dreams do come true!

  For those who have really stuck by me through thick, thin, depressed, filled with joy and all those emotions, situations in between, THANK YOU!

  For those changing locations, safe travels and blessings on your new homes. For those with new loves, may you be blessed with great communication and understanding. For those with new friends, may they be ones you will have for a lifetime! And for those with new family members, may you enjoy their love, include them and be blessed with good health.

 In Love and Light~

  I find it interesting how people  will willingly forget things, events, and dates to make them seem above others in the event of a difficulty within a relationship.

   I used to resort to such behavior, and I have come to learn there is a better way to behave. Sure there are things that I do not remember, yet when I tell someone my view or side of things if you will, of a difficulty I often refer to phrases such as: "This is how it made me feel"; "This is how it came across"; "This is how I meant it", and-or "As I remember, but I can't be for sure".  This way it lets people know that I am only giving them information as I remember, intended, or felt it, allowing for flaws as there are always more than two sides to a situation. I have come to know that there are multiple facets.

  In my more youthful days I used to listen to my Daddy Glen who could often be heard saying; "When I was young, I saw everything as being very black and white with very little to no gray areas in between. But as I got older I realized that there was very little black and white, with lots of gray areas between."  I too see this as I have aged. I use the word facets instead of gray, I think the ideas parallel.

  An old difficulty has come up again, for whatever reason, I have come to a few conclusions from rehashing this old difficulty. The people perpetuating the difficulty are either fearful, intimidated to learn the truth, or it could be they do not want to know or accept that their lives or family is not as perfect as the illusion they'd like you to believe.

  If these did not apply then why not simply reach for a phone, do a google search for email, or write a letter asking what is wrong?

  Instead it is much easier to deflect responsibility that they might have to account for, by including outside individuals to do their supposing and assuming for them, spreading speculation, half truths, and attempting to imply shame. All to garner pity, being a victim, and or being a martyr, which are some of the oldest ploys in the book for attempting to control, manipulate individuals, and on a spiritual level to steal energy.

  As long as they continue their ploys, they might never know the answer to their "why".

Sad to know, that I have been in that place at one time or another, the results were undue stress, resentment and guilt. Which got me nowhere.

  Each person will respond in their own way to such a situation, yet if it is never asked than one may never know why things have turned out they way they are.

 Its on them. Do what you will, give it your all and in the end it will not change a thing, until you have the courage to ask why, maybe a little forgiveness. the willingness to listen to another view, acceptance of other's imperfections, the openness to accept life on life's terms, and willingness to give control to the only one who should have it....Creator!

There are times that I really feel sad, sad that other people may not have been blessed with a gift I have or are too fearful of it. You see I am lucky enough not to have to be in the presence of a person to hear their spirit talk, in fact they do not even have to be on this earthly plane, for me to hear them. I feel so blessed that Creator blessed me with this gift, I am grateful for Creator guiding me though my own fear of the unknown and what people would think, do think.
 I am so looking forward to other blessings Creator has bestowed upon me. If it were not for Creator these gifts and blessings would mean nothing.

I just had to share what an awesome man I am married too. He received this today! Woot Woot!

   For some there will come a time in their life that no matter how much they love someone they will have to let them go. I am not speaking about death as in life and death, yet it is a death on some level. 
    I have had a couple of really interesting views that have come to me, some might say it was a vision others may say an altered state of awareness. I do not consider it a dream for I was fully awake.
    I have several of these since the first of January, I do not feel the actual details will have any bearing of the information that I feel I learned from these awareness reels. Like an old fashion movie reel.
    One of the lessons I learned from this reel was that a person was placed in a situation to choose, to choose to between children. Alienating one or risk being alienated from from several others, in my reel the woman felt she had not real choice in the matter for she should never have to choose between her children. I was sad to see this from this facet or angle if you will.
    It reflected on a choice I made on a similar yet different situation in my own life. I choose and continue to choose the happiness of my immediate family. Thus having to let go of people who I really love, but are just too entrenched in drama, negative innuendos, painful remarks disguised as jokes, gossip and that old trait of back stabbing.
   It has been difficult yet, a necessary process for my own inner peace to transverse through.                
   Basically (as Christopher my son would say) if these traits defined our relationship, I have  pretty much distanced or removed you from my life. It does not mean that I do not love you or them any less, it means that I respect myself enough to not tolerated such relationships. My peace of mind, my happiness and that of my family, far out weight any that of any toxic relationship.
    Another lesson learned was to just let them go, no guilt, no resentment, no anger, no waffling, just to let these people go with love. As I let these people go, I send them love, light, wishes for happiness, health, and peace.
  And I move forward in my life, continuing my efforts for  a loving and happy experience, I continue to learn, love and grow.
  Thank fully I have not been in a situation that would make me choose one of my children over then other one. Have I had to let a child go? Yes, when my son joined the Army and was deployed on his first tour over seas. Wow! Was that tough! I just had to have faith in his life path, if he was meant to be with us he would remain relatively safe, if he wasn't I would have to handle that at that point in time.
  I love my children dearly but I also know that for their over all success in life I have to let them go, give them tough love from time to time and know that one day they will have to carry on without me. As my mother instilled tons of strength in me, I only hope that I have done the same for my sons.
  As each person is different, as each family dynamic is different, as each relationship is different, some of what I have shared my resonate with you other parts will disgust you. It is the nature of being human. As always it is not my intent to judge, I simply share my observations, experiences, strength and hope.

This is a pretty amazing young woman that I have had the pleasure of sharing a class with, I am sharing in hopes of helping just a bit.
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